I’ve been having dreams as of lately (this past Friday 3/2) of my family that made it possible for me to be and it has left an emotional mark on me. My grandparents basically raised me but unlike a lot of grandparents who raised their grandchildren, my parents were also in the picture, so really it was an entire family raising my sister and I. My grandparents though, we the definition of a loving relationship, what a real marriage looks like. In every picture taken my Grandmother is always looking at my Grandfather with such love, no wonder why I love that way that I do. These are my maternal grandparents. If you’ve been following me for a while or from the beginning you would know how much my Grandmother’s presence in my life greatly impacted me. It will be two years in August that she has transitioned back to Spirit and 8 years for my Grandfather, yet when I’m going through a really hard time I feel their presence ever so strongly.
On Friday I woke up crying from a dream about my Grandparents. I woke up in grief. In my dream I was in a fairly large house full of chaos and I wanted to see my Grandfather. I found my Grandmother and asked her where he was and she told me he had “gone home to Louisiana”.
I called him and pleaded with him at this point to come back because I needed him and all he said was that he was home and he couldn’t be where I was anymore. Shortly after that my Grandmother informed that she too would be going home soon. I tried to process this while I was asleep but I woke up to a wet pillow. I’m currently in a state of transition, trying to figure out what is the best fit for me, what it looks like and what it feels like. It’s difficult to process and I’ve been really struggling with it now and of lately. The rest of the day I was depressed and in mourning because I miss being able to go to my Grandmother for a hug or a smile but whenever I’ve ever really needed her she’s always been available for me and that has never stopped. I’ve thankful to be so intuned to Spirit because I need to know that my Grandmother has never left me, her Spirit is the most important to me; soul mate connection.
Last night my sister and I traveled to San Francisco to attend a concert. Normally from Sacramento it’s takes an hour and a 1/2 but since we left at 5:30pm, we were expecting to get there in 2 and 1/2 hours because of rush hour traffic, but we were wrong. An hour later we entered into the city where we met the most of our traffic. I have an exteme anxiety of driving in SF due to the high hills so I prayed for comfort as I exited off of the 101. Next, I asked my guides specifically to help me find close and FREE parking and I found both minutes later.
Hazel English is a 25 year old Oakland based Australian Indie artist. I found her one day last year while listening to an Indie mix on Spotify. If you’re into the Indie genre check her out, you’ll love her! She’s got a 60’s vibe about her from the clothing she wears you the essence she sends out onto the world.
My sister and I were originally the first pair in line but after going back to the car and grabbing my sister’s sweater we came back second in line. The two ladies in front of us were San Jose natives who extended warmness and familiarity. As soon as the doors were opened we walked into the venue and Hazel walks in front and a across from where I’m standing in the darkened lit room and I yell, “Hazel” as she turns around. I then embarrassingly ask, “Can I take a picture with you”, which she replies, “Sure but after the show”. I felt like a little kid and I knew my face was red from the embarrassment I felt. Here I am 28 years old, geeking out when I see another (talented) human being just feet from where I was standing. All in all she put on an amazing show and displayed some of her era sticken moves which I wished I had recorded on my Snapchat!
Spirit is always with us readily available to assist with anything, all we need to do is ask. Although, I asked for small things, Spirit was there so why wouldn’t there be there when I ask for “big” things?
While you’re pondering that question just go ahead and listen to her, here’s a link from Amazon Music, it’s her new album, Just Give In/ Never Going Home Again. You’re thank you in advance!
I needed a change so I decided to do the style of faux dreads/ locs. It took me 8 hrs after an 8 day at work and I LOVE it minus the new experienced heaviness on my head and neck. It’s the look of total freedom without the total commitment to change, at least on the physical level.
I’ve been practicin, I’ve been practicin to let go of my logic and allow Spirit in. It takes time and patience has ever been my virtue but as I’m learning, time is everything and everything has its own time. I was in church yesterday and I had come in late so I sat in the back not wanting to directly disrupt service. I sat down and did a quick mediation to ground myself and to invite my guides in to help with delivering messages. I suddenly started feeling a throbbing on the left side of my head. I suffer from migraines but they are always on my right side so I knew immediately I was picking up energy from somewhere/ someone else I just needed to find out from whom. I focused and allowed myself to let Spirit in. Not too long after this my Reverend asked if I had received anything and it was my time to let Spirit work.
She sat in the front row, wearing all black, with a pixie style haircut, and she wore a turquoise crystal around her neck. I asked her name and then asked if she experienced migraines, she said no, and then I knew…. I asked if she saw auras (a common side effect of migraines) and if she saw Spirit. She readily admitted that she had seen Spirit, all of her life actually but had not ever received training or development on it. Spirit informed me to tell her to begin her spiritual journey so that she too can aid others. It was an amazing experience to say the very least. It’s astonishing to see what can happen when you stand out from your own restrictions and allow Spirit to work!
Hearing the Voice
It’s been a long time since I’ve last heard my name being called out to me. It startles me for sure but it never scares me…. it happened again today. I was on lunch on a short walk due to the heat and I hear a masculine voice call out my name as though his hands were circled around his mouth, “AMMMMBBEERR”. I stopped and turned around thinking it was a friend/co-worker messing with me but when I turned around no one was there. I heard it again and then again for a third time. I knew then that it was Spirit but I don’t know who it was. It was not a voice I’ve ever heard before, perhaps it’s a new guide, or a guide I’ve already had but have not been acquainted with yet. Some may read this and think I’m short a few screws or that I may be lying, but I’m learning to walk within my own truth. Those who understand will know and others will scrutinize and judge. That’s ok, we all have our moments of truth.. This is my truth…. My soul discovering journey, my development in becoming an intuitive counselor.