I’ve been listening to the audio book, The Aftermath of Billy Fingers by Annie Kagan. It’s a story of a sister who shares her journey with her brother and his journey into the Universe in Spirit form. I experienced a synchronicity while listening to the book that just occurred, and it’s something that Billy communicated to his sister. The message he gave was that he was preparing to enter into and become part of the Universe in which he stated, “I will be moving into the Universe where I will be nothing and everything at the same time. I will never again come to Earth. I will never leave you.”
If you’ve been following me via here and social media you will know of my struggles with happiness. During my state of unhappiness I became disconnected from Spirit communication, I created a blockage. As I move through my anxiety which involves letting go of control and expectations, I’m now opening and clearing myself of what no longer serves me. Last night my Grandmother came through and told me, “I’ve never left you“. This time spent in unhappiness I could feel it hear her anymore. Now I’ve been feeling her Spirit around me ever since. I am a psychic medium but I’m also a human being who struggles as well.
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I never thought this would be the last night I would spend with Babe on this 3D existence of life. Originally I had planned on spending the night along with my twin sister because now that Babe was on hospice we wanted to spend as much time with her that we could. Before arriving to the hospital I called the nurse’s station and requested for any extra pull out chair so that we both could spend the night but when I entered into the room there was only one. So I did what I always done I took a seat right next to Babe.
She was unconscious at this point but she looked like she was sleeping peacefully even sounded like she was snoring, but that sound was actually a sign of actively dying, which I found out later. I brought a Sylvie Brown book on life in the afterlife and started reading it to her. The photo below is a picture that my sister took while I was reading to her. It doesn’t look like it but Babe is laying in the bed comfortably underneath her blanket. It wasn’t an emotionally hard night for me surprisingly, we had been with her every night since we found out this would be her last stay in the hospital.
This was a Friday night however this began the following Thursday night. I had been pet sitting for my sister’s best friend and was waiting a long time to take the dog back to her parent’s house because my sister and I were flying up to Portland, OR to attend our cousin’s graduation from college. I ended up visiting my grandmother at 8:30pm. When I entered into the room I instantly knew something was wrong, very wrong. She didn’t look like herself and when I touched her she was clammy. She said her stomach hurt which wasn’t unusual but when she asked for a Kleenex to spit up in she threw up dark brown fluid, which was bile. I called for the CNA’s to help clean her up and in that very moment I experienced tunnel vision with Babe. Our soul’s communicated and she told me, “I’m done”, and I immediately started to cry. I heard her in my mind if that makes sense, and I knew then it was the beginning of the end of this journey for her and I both.
Around 12:30am on the 19th I decided to leave and go home. I got up out of my seat and came around the bed and held her bruised hand, and with my other free hand I wipe something from her face and kissed her on her forehead and said, “Ok Babe I’ll see you tomorrow when I spend the night”. I said goodnight to my sister and said “I love you Babe” and immediately I heard in my head, “I love you too”. I verbally recognized this my sister and told her that her spirit was still with her.
Three and a half hours later I received a call from my mother saying, “She’s gone, Mama’s gone”, the day my entire life changed.
I woke up this morning and immediately wrote about the experience I had while I was sleeping. I had a lucid dream of my grandmother speaking to me. I couldn’t see her but I heard her talking to me in my mind. It was so expansive that it felt like her voice filled every area of my mind. Immediately when I heard the voice I knew it was Babe. She spoke fast and it was a lot of information; however I do remember her telling me that she’s always with me. It’s almost a year to the day that she transitioned so it doesn’t surprise me that she would come through. My grandfather waited exactly a year to his passing to visit me. I physically miss her everyday, yet I feel her with me every day that I wake up and survive another day without her.
Sooooo for years I’ve never fully understood what the vibrations that I would feel in my heart chakra meant and when I was younger it would completely freak me out. Why, because I also didn’t realize that I’ve been suffering from anxiety from a young age because I didn’t understand that whenever I would feel this specific vibration in my heart chakra it is a sign for Spirit to communicate. I always thought it was because something was getting ready to happen to someone around, because this has been the case before, sorta like a forewarning, no really, it would be a forewarning. I normally receive information through my thoughts and images in my mind’s eye. I appreciate this new understanding.
Tonight I felt the vibrations in my heart and decided to go outside and look in the sky. Jupiter is very visible tonight and I’ve always felt a strong connection with Jupiter, one I just cannot explain. I went outside and I closed my eyes and asked my guides to come in and tell me what was going on. Immediately I sensed my body rocking back and forth while I was standing and I remained calm and just observed what was happening to me. I’m currently at work so once I get home I’ll see if I can write a message from Spirit. I’ve been working on clearing blockages so everything is just flowin in it seems like….. GREAT!!!!!
A lot could be told in analyzing genes but since I’m not a scientist so I won’t give you misguided information. All I know is that spiritual gifts can most likely be found in the lineage of one’s “biological” makeup. With that said my cousin Cherelle and I share similar abilities yet this time it seems like I mirrored her’s for the experience I’m about to write about.
Cherelle has the ability to experience Spirit through dreams of the recently departed. I have experienced this myself but it has always been personal, for me, to me. Just recently she lost her cousin, one I had not met before, so it was weird that I had a dream about him.
May 16th I woke up and immediately texted my cousin about a dream I recently had. I first asked her if she had a dream about her departed cousin yet and she told me she hadn’t so I preceded to tell her my dream. It was as though I was viewing the dream through her eyes and I found myself in a kitchen. Her cousin was standing in front of the stove cooking and dancing and he turned and looked at me and said, “It feels good to have everyone together” then I woke up. Her response was simple, “WOW”, and when I asked if the funeral had happened already she told me it was the following day.
So the next day she texts me out of the blue and told me she was at the funeral. She said,”I get it now, cuz all of his friends and family are here. I told his sister about the dream and she said, this was his everybody”.
I know this may seem small but the fact that her cousin went through me to give her and their family a message, is PHENOMENAL. This proof that Spirit is always with us. It’s really a great feeling that I can share my experiences with my cousin and that we connect on this level! This is us on my birthday celebrations earlier this year!
Thanks for reading and allowing me to share this story with you! Please comment below if you too have had similar experiences I would love to read about them!
April 2nd, 2017 was the day my sister and I visited my sister Spiritualist church, Golden Gate Spiritualist Church in San Francisco, California. The church looks like an old Victorian house in an area of Frisco that seems unlikely to house a church. I should have taken pictures inside of the church but did not for respect of the church. The inside was BEAUTIFUL. Spirit paintings filled up the walls of the church up and down stairs. Spirit Paintings are created during a seance. Spirit creates the image, it’s amazing because it occurs while the picture is covered. There is never any evidence of brush strokes, just a clear picture mostly of Spirit Guides from the founder, Reverend Florence Becker.
The beginning of any Spiritualist church starts off with a healing service. This service was performed in a room adjacent to the main room and it was filled with so much loving energy. After the healing service a short sermon was presented from the Reverend and a pianist played soft background and hymnal music. This day a guest Spiritualist medium from Great Britain, Pauline Mason, serviced the church and presented spirit greetings (short spiritual messages).
I was drawn to come this particular day but couldn’t really tell you why. I was hoping to hear from my Grandmother but instead we heard from her other half. Pauline had stated that she was finishing up the last of her messages when she said a Spirit was coming through and identified itself as being someone who used crutches in their life. My sister and I raised both of our hands up realizing that it was our Grandfather who was coming in. He was physically disabled his entire life but he never let it stop him. He was a prideful man which is another characteristic that she brought up of his Spirit. The overall message that he wanted to convey was that he wanted to thank us for helping him in his later years and that he was still with us, guiding us down the right path in our journeys. It brought major comfort and validation that we were meant to be at this particular service.
If you’re in the Bay Area of California or not far from it I highly suggest you visit the Golden Gate Spiritualist Church . I am almost done with my certification process in gaining the title of a certified Spiritualist medium; another post for another time, but if interested I will be posting about the process soon.
Remember when I bought you that one book? The Shack,yeah do you remember that, I know you do because you spent almost 20 minutes arguing with me that the name Amber was in the book. You were right, Amber was the name of one of the characters at the campsite. Well the movie just came out and it was everything I imagined it to be and MORE, I just wish you were sitting beside me having the same experience…. but you were.
Ginina was late, OF COURSE, so we missed the majority of the previews before the movie. I really wanted to see them but she had bought our tickets so I haaaddddd to wait for her. 15 minutes later she finally arrives and we get seated. The last movie review was about a girl whose mother kept her in the house all her life due to an illness she had. It looked like a cute teeny-bopper movie until the girl’s name appeared on the screen….. Madeline, and I knew without a doubt you WERE present with me.
It’s the settle signs that you know I’ll recognize, I’ll understand; we’ve always had a personal connection so why would it change now that you’re in Spirit? Rhetorical.
You never disappoint. I love you Grandma, and will always be missing you, even though intuitively I know you never really left…
As you know I have been offering intuitive readings and counseling session on a donation basis. As of very recently Spirit has announced to me that I need to add monetary value for my services and I’ve learned from past experiences, ie: I found a piece of myself in British Columbia , to listen whenever Spirit speaks to me.
Going forward, I ask for $20 for 30 minutes and will have to limit my sessions to weekends only due to school commitments during the months of December & January.
Please feel free to contact me via email if you want to interact with me before booking a session, I would love to here from you. My email can be found on the right side of my page. Thank you, I love you.
I am so excited to be attending and servicing my first Psychic Fair this weekend! For so long I have doubted myself in context of my spiritual abilities and being effective in servicing others…. I AM DONE WITH DOUBTING MYSELF. When we doubt ourselves we stop what God Consciousness, Spirit, and the Universe has in store for us! That’s a constant reminder I have to always think about as well!
Two weeks before my grandmother passed I asked if she could come back to me in Spirit so I could see and make sure that she would be okay, even though I knew she would be, but the request definitely was for my own ease of mind. She said she didn’t know if she could but if she could she would come back to me.
I had no idea that she would leave her body so soon after we had that conversation. Heartbreaking, yet heartbroken is probably the reason why she hasn’t been able to come through.
Through synchronicity today I was told by two people and while listening to one of my podcasts, “Grief may be the reason why Spirits aren’t able to communicate, it creates a blockage. Love is the only way that Spirit can come through. Instead of grieving I need to continue the love that I have for her.
When I was 21 years young I had a conversation with my grandmother that created an even closer bond between her and I. She told me that one day she had me and twin in a stroller and had taken us to the grocery store. A woman came up to her and asked her if she knew which one of us was the spiritual one. She said she didn’t know and the woman pointed to me and said that I was the spiritual one. From then on out Babe never doubted what I told her and she was my number one confidant when it came to discussing my spiritual communication and experiences. She even came to my Spiritualist church to watch my first talk on the podium. These are the things I will always remember, these are the moments that’s gotta be greater than grief.
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