Hey everyone! It’s been a lllooooongg time since I’ve written anything but I’ve been busy creating my new business, The Free Spirited Spiritual Development and Coaching Program!!! Spirit told me that I was ready to go after the eclipse and I’ve hit the ground running ever since!!!
I have to say honestly, it’s been a sort of chain reaction type of event ever since the last psychic show I worked for. It was in June of this year when I met another vendor by the name of Michelle P. She asked for my business card and ended up calling me a week after the event. She asked if I had a mentor or a coach working with me and then she gave me a few names in my area that she knew who could help me build my business, this was the starting point! I contacted a woman named Katrina S who lived in the Sacramento area and I didn’t hear back from her for about a month. When she finally contacted me I forgot why I had reached out to her but I really liked her vibe. She apologized for not seeing my message sooner due to the fact that the message went to her spam folder unexpectedly. Divine timing if you ask me, because I was ready.
Had I not met Katrina I would know nothing about the huge benefits of networking, redesigning my website, the importance of email opt-in’s, and how to even develop a business and marketing plan! There’s a lot to learn when creating a business but then again I am my brand so it’s salient to get out into the community and meet referral sources, possible joint venture opportunities, and CLIENTS!
In offering a free psychic reading I bring forth the interest and it’s always exciting for me to bring forth information that I’m picking up from the sitter’s energy and from Spirit, but the working to transform, that’s where the most excitement lies for me! Teaching others about their spiritual origins and reminding their spirit of who they really are and what they are capable of is soooo fulfilling! I want to travel the country and the world educating and sharing with others; that will be my greatest desire with this business! Here’s to manifesting GREATNESS!!!
Everyday, I think about her everyday but when I woke up this morning my soul wept. It wept because it reminded this was the date that she made her transition, a year ago. We communicate with one another daily but it doesn’t change the fact she is no longer in this 3D form of existence.
A few days ago she told me that I need to go to church because I had been contemplating going on a solo hike, she insisted that I go to church instead, so I did. I was late but I got to service before it ended. Reverend was giving spirit greetings and within 5 minutes Spirit directed her to me. She immediately brought in my Grandmother and I just wept loudly. No one in service knew what today meant, no one. I’m not surprised either. As soon as I stepped into the church my vibrational frequency changed from a lower level to a higher loving level.
I spoke to the Reverend after church and she advised me to grab a white candle to acknowledge her day before going into a deep meditation. I brought the candle and have it lit next to her photo. I’m in bed now because grieving is exhausting but I’ll be okay. Her Spirit has never left me just her body, yet a part of me will always grieve her passing. Her Spirit is always with me but I’m still human.
I never thought this would be the last night I would spend with Babe on this 3D existence of life. Originally I had planned on spending the night along with my twin sister because now that Babe was on hospice we wanted to spend as much time with her that we could. Before arriving to the hospital I called the nurse’s station and requested for any extra pull out chair so that we both could spend the night but when I entered into the room there was only one. So I did what I always done I took a seat right next to Babe.
She was unconscious at this point but she looked like she was sleeping peacefully even sounded like she was snoring, but that sound was actually a sign of actively dying, which I found out later. I brought a Sylvie Brown book on life in the afterlife and started reading it to her. The photo below is a picture that my sister took while I was reading to her. It doesn’t look like it but Babe is laying in the bed comfortably underneath her blanket. It wasn’t an emotionally hard night for me surprisingly, we had been with her every night since we found out this would be her last stay in the hospital.
This was a Friday night however this began the following Thursday night. I had been pet sitting for my sister’s best friend and was waiting a long time to take the dog back to her parent’s house because my sister and I were flying up to Portland, OR to attend our cousin’s graduation from college. I ended up visiting my grandmother at 8:30pm. When I entered into the room I instantly knew something was wrong, very wrong. She didn’t look like herself and when I touched her she was clammy. She said her stomach hurt which wasn’t unusual but when she asked for a Kleenex to spit up in she threw up dark brown fluid, which was bile. I called for the CNA’s to help clean her up and in that very moment I experienced tunnel vision with Babe. Our soul’s communicated and she told me, “I’m done”, and I immediately started to cry. I heard her in my mind if that makes sense, and I knew then it was the beginning of the end of this journey for her and I both.
Around 12:30am on the 19th I decided to leave and go home. I got up out of my seat and came around the bed and held her bruised hand, and with my other free hand I wipe something from her face and kissed her on her forehead and said, “Ok Babe I’ll see you tomorrow when I spend the night”. I said goodnight to my sister and said “I love you Babe” and immediately I heard in my head, “I love you too”. I verbally recognized this my sister and told her that her spirit was still with her.
Three and a half hours later I received a call from my mother saying, “She’s gone, Mama’s gone”, the day my entire life changed.
I woke up this morning and immediately wrote about the experience I had while I was sleeping. I had a lucid dream of my grandmother speaking to me. I couldn’t see her but I heard her talking to me in my mind. It was so expansive that it felt like her voice filled every area of my mind. Immediately when I heard the voice I knew it was Babe. She spoke fast and it was a lot of information; however I do remember her telling me that she’s always with me. It’s almost a year to the day that she transitioned so it doesn’t surprise me that she would come through. My grandfather waited exactly a year to his passing to visit me. I physically miss her everyday, yet I feel her with me every day that I wake up and survive another day without her.
Mercury Retrograde is upon us Earthlings now; or should I say, we’re now in Mercury Retrograde. Ok…. but what the hell does that even mean you might ask? The retrograde is an astrological phrase which explains how cosmic energies affect us, for a short explanation.
The reason I’m writing a short post on this is because I want to inform you of what NOT to do during this time. A lot of chaos is happening in the world right now, yes, it’s true that chaos on this planet is never ending, yet, you too are being affected. I know I am and until I spoke with my spiritual mentor, I didn’t know that what I was experiencing had a true reasoning behind it… MERCURY RETROGRADE!
To help you during this time here is a list of NOT to do during this time:
DON’T MAKE ANY IMPORTANT PLANS THAT INVOLVE CHANGE
REFRAIN FROM MAKING DECISIONS
Emotions at this time are all over the place but will even out after the retrograde has ended. This is a short post but a gentle reminder for the sensitive out there out in the world!
Remember when I bought you that one book? The Shack,yeah do you remember that, I know you do because you spent almost 20 minutes arguing with me that the name Amber was in the book. You were right, Amber was the name of one of the characters at the campsite. Well the movie just came out and it was everything I imagined it to be and MORE, I just wish you were sitting beside me having the same experience…. but you were.
Ginina was late, OF COURSE, so we missed the majority of the previews before the movie. I really wanted to see them but she had bought our tickets so I haaaddddd to wait for her. 15 minutes later she finally arrives and we get seated. The last movie review was about a girl whose mother kept her in the house all her life due to an illness she had. It looked like a cute teeny-bopper movie until the girl’s name appeared on the screen….. Madeline, and I knew without a doubt you WERE present with me.
It’s the settle signs that you know I’ll recognize, I’ll understand; we’ve always had a personal connection so why would it change now that you’re in Spirit? Rhetorical.
You never disappoint. I love you Grandma, and will always be missing you, even though intuitively I know you never really left…
February 23rd I saw a Facebook post from my friend’s sister asking everyone to pray for her family. It wasn’t anything more descriptive or specific than that but I instantly received a message that told me who the message pertained to and the fact that this was a fatality.
I had nothing to base this off of so I reached out to a mutual and family friend of my friend and confirmed that it was who I thought it was and it was a fatality.
I couldn’t and still can’t believe it.
I reached out to my spiritual mentor thinking I had a premonition and she said, “No Honey, that was a message, that your friend communicated to you. She confirmed who it was and what the situation was. She came through to you”.
This was how I received the message; first it was a strong feeling in my heart chakra then a strong knowing followed with this, “It’s_____, I didn’t make it”.
Usually I receive for others not for myself. I will carry this experience with me forever.
2016 has been a rough year for everyone and now it’s nearing its end…. FINALLY. We could choose to indulge in our losses or accept them as a necessity for us to move forward. I experienced death 3x this year and as I accept them I’ll never be the same without them, Your Ashes Feel Like Home. and Message from Grandma. With that said, I’ve moved on the best that I can which also included being laid off from my job at the end of the month, YET, had I not been laid off, I would not have gained the position I have now which is in my career field. Things have to fall a part before greater things can come together.
Anxiety has been another factor that I’ve had to deal with this year, something I didn’t recognize I have been dealing with until this year. As a child who experienced spiritual phenomenon I never understand the feelings I would experience underneath everything else I was seeing, hearing, and sensing but anxiety has been a companion of mine for many many years. Counseling helped when my Grandma transitioned onward and it was then that I realized ANXIETY as a partner I’ve never recognized.
I have to thank the love for my life for supporting and uplifting me throughout every loss and crisis I’ve experienced. He has been my guiding light, the Love of my Light, my Atheist Love, to read more about our Spiritualist & Atheist relationship please read The Ideal Relationship Between an Atheist & Spiritualist. Opposites do attract and everything is meant to be for reasoning of love and learning. The picture below is what I took while riding as a passenger to Mendocino, CA. It’s where My Love takes me to unwind and relax when life gets to be too much. It’s the town that sits on a cliff and love is felt everywhere.
Lastly, this year I’ve placed my fears aside and began servicing others spiritually through my intuitive readings. When I service others I heal myself. If you are in the Sacramento, California area and would like to schedule a face to face session with me please reach out to me via my email, I would LOVE to hear from you!
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