When we lose the physical aspect of our loved ones we are left feeling a sense of incompleteness. We no longer feel that natural connection and a fear washes over us that we’ve lost our loved ones forever; this is a false assumption. I am guilty of this as well but when I tap into the consciousness of my higher self I’m able to connect to my loved ones who are in Spirit and feel their love surrounding and encompassing me.
I never thought this would be the last night I would spend with Babe on this 3D existence of life. Originally I had planned on spending the night along with my twin sister because now that Babe was on hospice we wanted to spend as much time with her that we could. Before arriving to the hospital I called the nurse’s station and requested for any extra pull out chair so that we both could spend the night but when I entered into the room there was only one. So I did what I always done I took a seat right next to Babe.
She was unconscious at this point but she looked like she was sleeping peacefully even sounded like she was snoring, but that sound was actually a sign of actively dying, which I found out later. I brought a Sylvie Brown book on life in the afterlife and started reading it to her. The photo below is a picture that my sister took while I was reading to her. It doesn’t look like it but Babe is laying in the bed comfortably underneath her blanket. It wasn’t an emotionally hard night for me surprisingly, we had been with her every night since we found out this would be her last stay in the hospital.
This was a Friday night however this began the following Thursday night. I had been pet sitting for my sister’s best friend and was waiting a long time to take the dog back to her parent’s house because my sister and I were flying up to Portland, OR to attend our cousin’s graduation from college. I ended up visiting my grandmother at 8:30pm. When I entered into the room I instantly knew something was wrong, very wrong. She didn’t look like herself and when I touched her she was clammy. She said her stomach hurt which wasn’t unusual but when she asked for a Kleenex to spit up in she threw up dark brown fluid, which was bile. I called for the CNA’s to help clean her up and in that very moment I experienced tunnel vision with Babe. Our soul’s communicated and she told me, “I’m done”, and I immediately started to cry. I heard her in my mind if that makes sense, and I knew then it was the beginning of the end of this journey for her and I both.
Around 12:30am on the 19th I decided to leave and go home. I got up out of my seat and came around the bed and held her bruised hand, and with my other free hand I wipe something from her face and kissed her on her forehead and said, “Ok Babe I’ll see you tomorrow when I spend the night”. I said goodnight to my sister and said “I love you Babe” and immediately I heard in my head, “I love you too”. I verbally recognized this my sister and told her that her spirit was still with her.
Three and a half hours later I received a call from my mother saying, “She’s gone, Mama’s gone”, the day my entire life changed.
So I almost died on Saturday, June 24th. It was the day that I went to the Theresa Caputo (The Long Island Medium):
The Live Experience show! It was amazing because her personality was everything I thought it would be. She cursed often, interacted with the audience, and was on point with her messages too! She made my night when she walked to the middle of the paid seats where I was sitting, and looked directly at me!!! I didn’t go expecting to hear from Babe (Grandmother) or any of my departed loved ones, I literally went to observe how she worked. She walked down from the stage in her 10 inch Louboutin’s and read as she walked down the aisles of seats. I love her but for me, I feel that I’m being moved towards teaching and counseling through Spirit hence the mention of my new Spirit guide.
Melody is the energy’s name and I’m not sure if the energy was ever born. When I saw the energy I was meditating and received a message from a Spirit who identified itself as Melody. The energy felt light, as if it’s a light being that is assisting me now. I am 100% sure that this is my new guide and that the information I received is accurate. I’m ready. Before I writing this post I was taking a nap and I felt someone sit on the end of my bed. I was in the in between state of being asleep and being “woke” when I felt it. I don’t know who it was because it didn’t matter at the time. I acknowledged that it was there and then it was gone. This experience reassured me that I’m not alone, Spirit’s got my back!
April 2nd, 2017 was the day my sister and I visited my sister Spiritualist church, Golden Gate Spiritualist Church in San Francisco, California. The church looks like an old Victorian house in an area of Frisco that seems unlikely to house a church. I should have taken pictures inside of the church but did not for respect of the church. The inside was BEAUTIFUL. Spirit paintings filled up the walls of the church up and down stairs. Spirit Paintings are created during a seance. Spirit creates the image, it’s amazing because it occurs while the picture is covered. There is never any evidence of brush strokes, just a clear picture mostly of Spirit Guides from the founder, Reverend Florence Becker.
The beginning of any Spiritualist church starts off with a healing service. This service was performed in a room adjacent to the main room and it was filled with so much loving energy. After the healing service a short sermon was presented from the Reverend and a pianist played soft background and hymnal music. This day a guest Spiritualist medium from Great Britain, Pauline Mason, serviced the church and presented spirit greetings (short spiritual messages).
I was drawn to come this particular day but couldn’t really tell you why. I was hoping to hear from my Grandmother but instead we heard from her other half. Pauline had stated that she was finishing up the last of her messages when she said a Spirit was coming through and identified itself as being someone who used crutches in their life. My sister and I raised both of our hands up realizing that it was our Grandfather who was coming in. He was physically disabled his entire life but he never let it stop him. He was a prideful man which is another characteristic that she brought up of his Spirit. The overall message that he wanted to convey was that he wanted to thank us for helping him in his later years and that he was still with us, guiding us down the right path in our journeys. It brought major comfort and validation that we were meant to be at this particular service.
If you’re in the Bay Area of California or not far from it I highly suggest you visit the Golden Gate Spiritualist Church . I am almost done with my certification process in gaining the title of a certified Spiritualist medium; another post for another time, but if interested I will be posting about the process soon.
To all of my subscribers,
As you know I have been offering intuitive readings and counseling session on a donation basis. As of very recently Spirit has announced to me that I need to add monetary value for my services and I’ve learned from past experiences, ie: I found a piece of myself in British Columbia , to listen whenever Spirit speaks to me.
Going forward, I ask for $20 for 30 minutes and will have to limit my sessions to weekends only due to school commitments during the months of December & January.
Please feel free to contact me via email if you want to interact with me before booking a session, I would love to here from you. My email can be found on the right side of my page. Thank you, I love you.
I really thought I would take your transition HARD yet I’ve been surprisingly happy. Perhaps it’s because I’m not searching for you. Where you are isn’t Up somewhere that is unreachable, no, your existence is omnipresent. Although, I don’t interact with you as I normally have, you still communicate to me. I hear you speak to me when I’m having a rough moment. I don’t doubt it, I don’t question it. I also don’t believe that these incidences are occurring because I want them to, you’ve never left me. It’s as simple as that. In fact I know it is you that is behind my sudden push into doing my life’s work. Thank you. Sure there’s times that I cry when I think about you; that’ll be for the rest of my life. Thank you for always sending me signs as you said you would before you passed onward. I will always be your baby.
Synchronicity is something that is HUGE for me because it brings so much meaning within my spiritual understanding of coincidences. My great friends from The Tree of Awakening gives credit to the great psychotherapist and psychologist Carl Jung for the definition of synchronicity;
Carl Jung who originally used the term synchronicity in his 1952 essay, “Synchronicity: An Acausal Connecting Principal”, to describe chance happenings between unconnected people or events.
With that said, I’ve been seeing the number 43 for about a year now, even more so than ever before. I see it everywhere, when I look out the window when I’m driving, it’ll be on license plates, gas prices, clocks, phone times, songs, books, EVERYWHERE! I’m always intrigued because I know the Universe and Spirit is communicating with me. Something is in the works of beginning reality.
Last year I wrote a letter to the Universe describing exactly what I wanted and needed in a male partner. I made a list of I think 10 or 13 characteristics, placed it in my purse and forgot about it. About 30 days later I met the man who grew into being the love of my life. I can’t give all of my credit to an Infinite Source because I had to place myself within a space that I could focus on myself and let go of past transgressions and attract what I really needed in a partner. He was all but one of my characteristics; it was around that time I started being cognizant of the number 43.
Lately, I’ve been working on manifesting supplemental income with pet sitting since my love, Mamas, transitioned. I realized that bringing other pets into my life by taking care of them for a short amount of time could help heal my aching heart and supply monetary value. As of yesterday I finally landed my first client, Harlow, which I will write a separate post about because of her complexities and sensitivities. I’ve officially started pet sitting!
Lastly, I’m been focusing on my mediumship and spiritual development so that I can use my abilities for spiritual counseling. I came across the podcast, The Big Seance Podcast that had an episode featuring UK medium ,Claire Broad. I resonated with her so much that I had to reach out to her and tell her my story. She responded and thanked me for reaching out to her because I gave her the encouragement and confirmation that she is living her life’s mission, which is how she made me feel. This past Sunday I gave a spirit greeting in church to a woman I never met. The message I received from Spirit had something to do with a dog and the beach. After service we spoke and she confirmed that what I had brought her was a significance in her life. It was beyond exciting!!!!! Not to mention the almost daily conversations I have with one of my many kindred soul’s and fellow blogger Molly, and the fact that we’re so connected, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!!!
I’m not sure what is getting ready to occur but I recognize it, appreciate it, and most importantly believe only greatness will happen!
Sometimes when we dream we dream of loved ones who have since passed. Sometimes those dreams feel so real, just like a real interaction, and most of the time they are.
My Papa was actually my Great Uncle, but he’s always been my Papa ever since I can remember despite that fact I had a wonderful grandfather, his brother-in-law. Hopefully I haven’t confused you… but growing up my sister and I would travel to Reno, NV to spend the summers with our Grannie & Papa and he would always give us talks of wisdom about life, the importance of education, and money management to name a few; ultimately he was preparing us for adulthood. Unfortunately he passed away when I was 12 so I’ve always felt like I needed his guidance, yet he has never left me.
When I was around 15 or 16 I had a very very vivid dream of him. I was in an open field of waving green tall grass. The air was perfect, nice with a comfortable breeze when I smelled the scent of his cologne. His scent was very specific. I turned around to find him right by my side. He spoke to me with urgency and sorrow. He kept repeating that “it was unfair, it was unfair but everything will be okay, this will make you stronger”, like he was preparing me for something, warning me about something to come. Not long after my mother had her first manic episode that I could actually remember and the roles changed from adult to child to child to adult; I had to grow up quick and make sure that my mom had the proper care she needed. He was right.
Papa doesn’t visit often but when he does he always has a message to gift me so it didn’t necessarily surprise me when he found me again last night.
In my dream I was walking within a busy strip mall trying to find coffee when I came across this house with an older man sitting on the porch. I felt drawn to the house although I did not recognize it, I followed my instinct and it led me to my Papa. He turned around and said, “I’ve been waiting for you”. I felt excited to see him because I miss him, naturally. I asked him what he meant and he told me it was time for me to know…
My Grannie was one of my favorite people, beside my grandmother (her sister) because she was so fashionable, so entertaining, just someone I resonated with. When she passed it was sad naturally but it was even sadder because she suffered from dementia before she passed. It had gotten to the point that I stopped visiting her in the convalescent home she resided in after suffering a stroke because it broke my heart seeing her in the condition she was in. Anyways, this is what my Papa wanted to talk to me about….. he explained that the reason why I haven’t been visited by her was because the state of mind that she was in when she passed made her believed that myself along with her family had abandoned her before she passed and that she’s still in that state of mind in spirit. It’s interesting that he would tell me this, the day of her sister’s funeral…..
I initially brushed this off as just a dream until I had a conversation with one of my co-workers this morning. He, we’ll call him Mr. Suave, comes and chats with me from time to time and this morning he talked me to me about his family and in particular his Uncle Rick. When he described his uncle, the resemblance of character was identical to my Papa who in reality was my great-uncle, I knew then this wasn’t a dream but an actual visit!
Spirit communication during the time the body sleeps is not uncommon because it’s an active time for the mind to be awake, for the soul to listen and understand. Some people will read this and think it’s all part of my subconscious mind playing itself out but spiritually grounded people will understand and appreciate this truth I present.
Do you represent what you preach, or are you a walking hypocrite hoping to fill in the shoes of your favorite author or person you see on tv? What is it about your persona that drives people in your direction and does your passion always shine through?
These are questions I ask myself in attempting to display my many messages to society. Displaying confidence in what you are speaking out about is key for society to resonate with you. As I write this I am being reminded of this as well. I struggle with confidence from time to time, hey I’m human it happens! Yet, I’m honest about it, because I’m no where close to being perfect. What’s perfect anyways?
Studying and experiencing, it’s what I do. In order to be of help for others I need to know what I’m talking about. I need to understand how it feels, I know it’s the Empath in me, but all and all I need to be able to be in the expert of my image. Last night my younger cousin reached out to me because of the experiences she’s been having. She’s actually the reason I am writing this. She’s experiencing mediumship abilities which is AWESOME! She knows that I have such experiences and knowledge so I can help explain some things to her. My image is what she saw and my image allowed her to reach out to me. I want to be someone that anyone can reach to.
I am that someone.
I possess the knowledge, and I can assist others spiritually, emotionally, and metaphysically.
I have the experience and I have the knowledge. Just like you, I too can do anything I put my mind and energy into.
Disclaimer: I found this picture on my Pinterest and felt it matched this post so perfectly!
Spiritual education (Mediumship Course) received from Morris Pratt Institute
Bachelor’s of Metaphysics received from:The University of Metaphysics
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