Dreams and Flickering Lights

Losing my Grandmother in the physical aspect was my worst living nightmare, even as a child just the thought traumatized me. I know now it’s because of our soul connection to one another and the many lifetimes we’ve shared that created this fear of…. potentially losing her. 

When the day finally came and her soul broke free, I felt alone, utterly alone but she always find ways to remind me of her presence, even on the day she passed on. 

I dream about her often, sense her presence, and acknowledge whenever she speaks to me. Hearing her is different now, but whenever I do I never doubt it. 

This morning while doing my hair and listening to one of Theresa Caputo’s audiobooks, the light flickered. It happened right when Theresa was talking about signs from loved ones. Thanks Babe.

I’ll miss my Grandmother for the rest of my life but I have so much of her left within me along with videos and pictures to remind me of her, so that the time I have left on this Earth won’t feel like it’s too far away from our reunion together.

If you’ve recently lost a loved one, I only hope that reading this brings you some type of comfort in knowing that our loved ones are never too far away and are always in our hearts. That’s comforting to know if anything else. 

I am of What the Cosmos Are Made Of

No picture to share but I saw a shooting star. Is that even “photographical”? I don’t know but I immediately felt a sense of oneness with it, sigh of breath, magical. 

A home out within infinite space, yes I’m missing that place. 

Where we all sparkle.

My Experience with an Animal Intuitive 

Mendo has been the most unpredictable gift that I’ve received as of lately. He’s my Jorkie (Jack Russell & Yorkie mix) and I’ve grown to love him! 

I met Daisy at a psychic fair that I serviced and although I’ve only met her twice, it seemed as though I’ve known her for a very long time. So after some thought I reached out to her for a reading about Mendo and my past baby,  Mamas. The reading was INCREDIBLE.  Readings for animals is a different form of spiritual ability which is needed in the world. Animals give us humans life and some of us a purpose in this life. If you’re interested in knowing what your pet wants to say I highly recommend Daisy. She can be reached through her website Animal Mystic.  

Daisy is also a Reiki Master; a woman with versatile spiritual attunement!

Spirit Communication is A Personal Connection 

Remember when I bought you that one book? The Shack,yeah do you remember that, I know you do because you spent almost 20 minutes arguing with me that the name Amber was in the book. You were right, Amber was the name of one of the characters at the campsite. Well the movie just came out and it was everything I imagined it to be and MORE, I just wish you were sitting beside me having the same experience…. but you were. 

Ginina was late, OF COURSE, so we missed the majority of the previews before the movie. I really wanted to see them but she had bought our tickets so I haaaddddd to wait for her. 15 minutes later she finally arrives and we get seated. The last movie review was about a girl whose mother kept her in the house all her life due to an illness she had. It looked like a cute teeny-bopper movie until the girl’s name appeared on the screen….. Madeline, and I knew without a doubt you WERE present with me. 

It’s the settle signs that you know I’ll recognize, I’ll understand; we’ve always had a personal connection so why would it change now that you’re in Spirit? Rhetorical.

You never disappoint. I love you Grandma, and will always be missing you, even though intuitively I know you never really left…

Amber Choisella 

It Wasn’t a Premonition,  I was Wrong.

February 23rd I saw a Facebook post from my friend’s sister asking everyone to pray for her family. It wasn’t anything more descriptive or specific than that but I instantly received a message that told me who the message pertained to and the fact that this was a fatality. 

I had nothing to base this off of so I reached out to a mutual and family friend of my friend and confirmed that it was who I thought it was and it was a fatality. 

I couldn’t and still can’t believe it. 

I reached out to my spiritual mentor thinking I had a premonition and she said, “No Honey, that was a message, that your friend communicated to you. She confirmed who it was and what the situation was. She came through to you”. 

This was how I received the message; first it was a strong feeling in my heart chakra then a strong knowing followed with this,  “It’s_____, I didn’t make it”. 

Usually I receive for others not for myself. I will carry this experience with me forever.

Ode to Janel

We met in the fourth grade but fuuucckkk 27 years,  27 years isn’t long enough. 

I’m angry. I’m heartbroken. 

I’m a lot of things because I can’t understand why, but then again it’s not meant for me to. 

We spent a lot of time together in our early twenties. Smoked a lot of blunts together, now this letter or whatever this is just feels strange. 

I used to call your Mom, Mom and you showed me things in your culture, you talked to me about your secrets, and I never judged you for that. You never judged me for my shit and I would laugh and say, “that’s cuz you with the shit”. Now that’s it, in this realm anyway. 

You’re in a time and space where you’re anywhere and everywhere. A space where you’ll always be with your daughter and everyone else who loves you. 
The young and beautiful live forever; you’ll live forever in my spirit, until our next lifetime together. 

I love you. 

My Experience with Sensory Deprivation 

​Continuing my soul discovering journey…
Experienced my first session of sensory deprivation yesterday. Working in the field of mental health, I need to find a plethora of self-care techniques and I found one here! I laid in a pod of water filed with 1000 lbs of epson salt which automatically makes you float! The lid of the pod is closed and you float in the light with soft music in the background, or in the dark with silence, which is my preference! Also, if you’re into oxygen bars Float REST has them too! It’s relaxing, I like it! Definitely another venture of meditation, I highly recommend it! 

Always Present

It’s funny, I was sitting at a table with my best friend, while I was waiting to order a soda, and I said,  “I really miss my grandma, it’s hard to believe she’s really not here anymore”. Less than a minute later our server comes and the name on her name tag reads, Maddie. I asked her what it was short for and she said Madeline but spelled it Madelynn.

Thanks Babe I needed that sign. 

The Shift and What To Do When It’s Happening 

I have to be honest, it’s the next best thing other than  being nice right? 

I’ve been struggling. Ask me how I’m doing and I’ll tell you I’m struggling.

Homework is difficult because my job is difficult and I feel like everything is unraveling around me. I feel like maybe I’m really not cut out for this counseling thing, until a client came to me within her deepest despair and the counseling process opened up and started to flow out of me. Afterwards the client had told me that ever since they met me they knew I would be the one that they could come and talk to, and suddenly I started seeing the light breaking through the clouds.wp-1486026405935.png

I work for a non-profit crisis residential program with people who are currently in crisis come and stay 30 days to work on a treatment plan to live a better life essentially. These people are seriously unwell. So everyday I never know what I’m going to walk in to. My first month in and I already had a client file a grievance with me and I had to talk to the state investigator about it on my birthday, it was so nerve wratching! I’m learning that I can’t take anything personal but it’s HARD. I just want to counsel people but I did need to experience this side of the field too. I’m thankful for the job, I’m just needing to bring in my spiritual care if not I’ll digress quickly…..

The Shift is  occurring within and around us and it’s effecting everything and everyone, so what do you do? I work on my spiritual health to keep me going. Due to the stress and anxiety I’ve dealing with school and work I need something that intervenes and helps my soul and it’s this, this what I’m doing right, sharing my story to someone who might care….I care, I had to let it go, all the unwanted, all the uninvited energies, I had to let them go. A sweet woman I call Auntie Judy knew of my struggles  and she asked if she could give me a spiritual healing using light language. It’s the language that only the soul can understand. Immediately I felt better. She advised me to have a black tourmaline stone with me at all times because this stone grounds me and protects my spirit from negative energies. I bought a chakra bracelet and a small bad to carry certain stones to help my aura cleanse itself and to not keep any unwanted energy, yes the stone will help with all of that! 

I also take bubble baths with blessed salt to cleanse my spirit. These techniques really do help bring me back to balance. The picture below is my small temple. I have Ganesh protecting Babe’s picture in the middle, a cookie fortune that says, well I don’t honestly know at the moment, another stone I can’t remember and a larger piece of Black Tourmaline. Inside are the many different crystals I carry on the daily for spiritual protection and ascension. Even with the darkest days spirituality is still everything to me!

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Babe will always be the center of my heart.

Postponing Intuitive Readings Until Further Notice 

Due to the transition of working and studying within the field of mental health, I have decided to postpone giving my intuitive readings until further notice. I have to take care of myself first, and lately I’ve been completely overwhelmed. As soon as I get back into balance and form a new comfortablity with work and school I’ll be back to service you! 

If you want to chat about all things spiritual, I’m always eager to chat. Thanks for understanding!

With Love & Light Always,

Amber Choisella