Lightworker Struggles

Hey everyone! I’ve been busy with grad school, looking for a new/more beneficial job, while working on my Free Spirit services. I can’t say life is boring that’s for sure. 

Recently I went on a hike, a spiritual hike with fellow lightworkers and had a profound experience. I’m too catch up in the 3D world and need to refocus my attention to my spiritual development. Now that I’m on a short break with school, I have more time focus and learn how to fully incorporate my spiritual and physical needs into one. 

I’m in the works of creating a YouTube channel about spirituality, spiritual experiences, and discuss spiritual counseling using psychothereupetic approaches. 

For my favorite bloggers I’ll be catching up with you soon! Love and light to you! 

Transitioning and Manifesting, They Kinda Go Together

I actually made it through this last period of Mercury Retrograde which ended May 4th! During this transitional time I moved in with the love of my life which was a decision made prior to the Mercury Retrograde, participated in an interview that I feel will change my working environment, AND I started my counseling internship!!!! 

The move was stressful as most moves are but once I became settled in everything that was negative is now positive, with everything falling into place! I’ve been praying about the negative energy at work and send loving energy to my co-workers and the clients, in addition to perform soul communication with those who are struggling at work. It seems as though when one person struggles, they want everyone else to suffer too. Ahhh but not I, no longer! Soul communication is done when you speak directly to another person’s soul. I normally say the following, “Dear soul of_______ I love, honor, and respect you. I ask for___________. I ask that you receive in this love and light. I also have been praying for Archangel Michael to come in and protect my Spirit from picking up negative energy and psychic attacks. Each day becomes easier to endure, at work, but I am already thankful for the new position I will be accepting soon. I feel it and I know a new position is coming for me.

Lastly, I saw my first client as a counselor in training!!!! I am in the last section of my Master’s program of Mental Health Counseling and I was given a referral to a non-profit private practice and was accepted there to complete my internship and Master’s program! I love it because I’m being taught how to build and maintain a private practice which is what I want. I  ultimately  want to do spiritual counseling and this experience with the non-profit will teach me everything I need to pursue my goals of operating a private practice!

Mediate, pray, be thankful, and share love; these are the characteristics for success. Life changes for opportunities to grow, remember this always.

Transition
Found picture online

Dreams and Flickering Lights

Losing my Grandmother in the physical aspect was my worst living nightmare, even as a child just the thought traumatized me. I know now it’s because of our soul connection to one another and the many lifetimes we’ve shared that created this fear of…. potentially losing her. 

When the day finally came and her soul broke free, I felt alone, utterly alone but she always find ways to remind me of her presence, even on the day she passed on. 

I dream about her often, sense her presence, and acknowledge whenever she speaks to me. Hearing her is different now, but whenever I do I never doubt it. 

This morning while doing my hair and listening to one of Theresa Caputo’s audiobooks, the light flickered. It happened right when Theresa was talking about signs from loved ones. Thanks Babe.

I’ll miss my Grandmother for the rest of my life but I have so much of her left within me along with videos and pictures to remind me of her, so that the time I have left on this Earth won’t feel like it’s too far away from our reunion together.

If you’ve recently lost a loved one, I only hope that reading this brings you some type of comfort in knowing that our loved ones are never too far away and are always in our hearts. That’s comforting to know if anything else. 

It Wasn’t a Premonition,  I was Wrong.

February 23rd I saw a Facebook post from my friend’s sister asking everyone to pray for her family. It wasn’t anything more descriptive or specific than that but I instantly received a message that told me who the message pertained to and the fact that this was a fatality. 

I had nothing to base this off of so I reached out to a mutual and family friend of my friend and confirmed that it was who I thought it was and it was a fatality. 

I couldn’t and still can’t believe it. 

I reached out to my spiritual mentor thinking I had a premonition and she said, “No Honey, that was a message, that your friend communicated to you. She confirmed who it was and what the situation was. She came through to you”. 

This was how I received the message; first it was a strong feeling in my heart chakra then a strong knowing followed with this,  “It’s_____, I didn’t make it”. 

Usually I receive for others not for myself. I will carry this experience with me forever.

Ode to Janel

We met in the fourth grade but fuuucckkk 27 years,  27 years isn’t long enough. 

I’m angry. I’m heartbroken. 

I’m a lot of things because I can’t understand why, but then again it’s not meant for me to. 

We spent a lot of time together in our early twenties. Smoked a lot of blunts together, now this letter or whatever this is just feels strange. 

I used to call your Mom, Mom and you showed me things in your culture, you talked to me about your secrets, and I never judged you for that. You never judged me for my shit and I would laugh and say, “that’s cuz you with the shit”. Now that’s it, in this realm anyway. 

You’re in a time and space where you’re anywhere and everywhere. A space where you’ll always be with your daughter and everyone else who loves you. 
The young and beautiful live forever; you’ll live forever in my spirit, until our next lifetime together. 

I love you. 

The Shift and What To Do When It’s Happening 

I have to be honest, it’s the next best thing other than  being nice right? 

I’ve been struggling. Ask me how I’m doing and I’ll tell you I’m struggling.

Homework is difficult because my job is difficult and I feel like everything is unraveling around me. I feel like maybe I’m really not cut out for this counseling thing, until a client came to me within her deepest despair and the counseling process opened up and started to flow out of me. Afterwards the client had told me that ever since they met me they knew I would be the one that they could come and talk to, and suddenly I started seeing the light breaking through the clouds.wp-1486026405935.png

I work for a non-profit crisis residential program with people who are currently in crisis come and stay 30 days to work on a treatment plan to live a better life essentially. These people are seriously unwell. So everyday I never know what I’m going to walk in to. My first month in and I already had a client file a grievance with me and I had to talk to the state investigator about it on my birthday, it was so nerve wratching! I’m learning that I can’t take anything personal but it’s HARD. I just want to counsel people but I did need to experience this side of the field too. I’m thankful for the job, I’m just needing to bring in my spiritual care if not I’ll digress quickly…..

The Shift is  occurring within and around us and it’s effecting everything and everyone, so what do you do? I work on my spiritual health to keep me going. Due to the stress and anxiety I’ve dealing with school and work I need something that intervenes and helps my soul and it’s this, this what I’m doing right, sharing my story to someone who might care….I care, I had to let it go, all the unwanted, all the uninvited energies, I had to let them go. A sweet woman I call Auntie Judy knew of my struggles  and she asked if she could give me a spiritual healing using light language. It’s the language that only the soul can understand. Immediately I felt better. She advised me to have a black tourmaline stone with me at all times because this stone grounds me and protects my spirit from negative energies. I bought a chakra bracelet and a small bad to carry certain stones to help my aura cleanse itself and to not keep any unwanted energy, yes the stone will help with all of that! 

I also take bubble baths with blessed salt to cleanse my spirit. These techniques really do help bring me back to balance. The picture below is my small temple. I have Ganesh protecting Babe’s picture in the middle, a cookie fortune that says, well I don’t honestly know at the moment, another stone I can’t remember and a larger piece of Black Tourmaline. Inside are the many different crystals I carry on the daily for spiritual protection and ascension. Even with the darkest days spirituality is still everything to me!

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Babe will always be the center of my heart.

Five Ways to Find Your Life Purpose

Spirit Evolution

Why am I here? What am I supposed to do with my life? What will give me the most joy and fulfillment?

Many of us ask questions similar to these at some point in our life, and coming up with an answer can be challenging. It is easy to get so bogged down with day-to-day living that we lose sight of the bigger purpose of our being. But when you take the time to step back, you can identify your individual gift and then share it with the world.

Here are a number of ways you can begin to identify your life purpose.

  1. Figure out what you love doing. Make a list of the things that you do that bring you joy or invigorate you. What activities cause you to lose track of time or forget to eat? What did you love to do when you were a kid?

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Clearing out Energy and Dealing with Borderline Personality Disorder

It’s been a while since I’ve last posted anything and to be honest I’ve been sick and dealing with a personal crisis. Yes, even the optimist struggles from time to time. I’m feeling better now and things  have calmed down as I’ve worked through the struggles. Therapy helps too especially when learning how to deal with someone who has Borderline Personality Disorder at work. It’s not a psychotic issue it’s behavioral which is something I’ve never encountered before. It was extremely stressful working with a client with this disorder because it’s new, but just because it’s new and difficult does not mean I was gonna give up. I couldn’t give up, I chose to understand and talk to my supervisor and therapist about it. After all, I am in school so that I’ll be able to work for and advocate for the mental health community. Seriously, support and self-care are both essential for working in the mental health field.

As far as my sickness…. it was directed in my throat which a good friend reminded me, of the Throat Chakra and the ascension that’s occurring now on Earth. Clearing energy to open up for new energy to come in and continuing helping me speak my truth and the truth Spirit has for me to speak.

That’s all I got for now……. oh yeah my 28th year of life is on Thursday the 26th, too bad I’ll be working a 12 hour shift… yeah that’s overtime! Farewell for now…. always continue to love and live in the light!

Amber Choisella

Mendo & Auntie Lex

Things happen in life when you least expect them to, that’s how it works doesn’t it? On the 27th of December my love asked me if I wanted to foster a pup that was found at work. He didn’t want the pup to go to the shelter so naturally I said yes! After I saw him for the first time I couldn’t ever imagine being without him!

While thinking of a name for him I decided to name him Mendo, short for Mendocino, which is the seaside town that my love and I love to go to. That sounds extra lol! Well Mendo, knows his name and the best part is he’s sooo lovable! The funny part is that Mamas came into my life the same way too. He’s still a baby less than a year old. Mamas passed away the same time he was probably born…. reincarnation possibly?

Happy New Year Everyone!

 

Mendo taking a nap after a long walk.
Mendo and his Auntie Lex

New Beginnings and Service to Others

2016 has been a rough year for everyone and now it’s nearing its end…. FINALLY. We could choose to indulge in our losses or accept them as a necessity for us to move forward. I experienced death 3x this year and as I accept them I’ll never be the same without them, Your Ashes Feel Like Home. and Message from Grandma.  With that said, I’ve moved on the best that I can which also included being laid off from my job at the end of the month, YET, had I not been laid off, I would not have gained the position I have now which is in my career field. Things have to fall a part before greater things can come together. 

Anxiety has been another factor that I’ve had to deal with this year, something I didn’t recognize I have been dealing with until this year. As a child who experienced spiritual phenomenon I never understand the feelings I would experience underneath everything else I was seeing, hearing, and sensing but anxiety has been a companion of mine for many many years. Counseling helped when my Grandma transitioned onward and it was then that I realized ANXIETY as a partner I’ve never recognized.

I have to thank the love for my life for supporting and uplifting me throughout every loss and crisis I’ve experienced. He has been my guiding light, the Love of my Light, my Atheist Love, to read more about our Spiritualist & Atheist relationship please read The Ideal Relationship Between an Atheist & Spiritualist. Opposites do attract and everything is meant to be for reasoning of love and learning. The picture below is what I took while riding as a passenger to Mendocino, CA. It’s where My Love takes me to unwind and relax when life gets to be too much. It’s the town that sits on a cliff and love is felt everywhere.

Lastly, this year I’ve placed my fears aside and began servicing others spiritually through my intuitive readings. When I service others I heal myself. If you are in the Sacramento, California area and would like to schedule a face to face session with me please reach out to me via my email, I would LOVE to hear from you!

 

 

 

HWY 1 en route to Mendocino, CA