Memorializing the Life of Babe a Year Later

Everyday, I think about her everyday but when I woke up this morning my soul wept. It wept because it reminded this was the date that she made her transition, a year ago. We communicate with one another daily but it doesn’t change the fact she is no longer in this 3D form of existence.

A few days ago she told me that I need to go to church because I had been contemplating going on a solo hike, she insisted that I go to church instead, so I did. I was late but I got to service before it ended. Reverend was giving spirit greetings and within 5 minutes Spirit directed her to me. She immediately brought in my Grandmother and I just wept loudly. No one in service knew what today meant, no one. I’m not surprised either. As soon as I stepped into the church my vibrational frequency changed from a lower level to a higher loving level.

I spoke to the Reverend after church and she advised me to grab a white candle to acknowledge her day before going into a deep meditation. I brought the candle and have it lit next to her photo. I’m in bed now because grieving is exhausting but I’ll be okay. Her Spirit has never left me just her body, yet a part of me will always grieve her passing. Her Spirit is always with me but I’m still human.

August 19th, 2016

I never thought this would be the last night I would spend with Babe on this 3D existence of life. Originally I had planned on spending the night along with my twin sister because now that Babe was on hospice we wanted to spend as much time with her that we could. Before arriving to the hospital I called the nurse’s station and requested for any extra pull out chair so that we both could spend the night but when I entered into the room there was only one. So I did what I always done I took a seat right next to Babe.

She was unconscious at this point but she looked like she was sleeping peacefully even sounded like she was snoring, but that sound was actually a sign of actively dying, which I found out later. I brought a Sylvie Brown book on life in the afterlife and started reading it to her. The photo below is a picture that my sister took while I was reading to her. It doesn’t look like it but Babe is laying in the bed comfortably underneath her blanket. It wasn’t an emotionally hard night for me surprisingly, we had been with her every night since we found out this would be her last stay in the hospital.

This was a Friday night however this began the following Thursday night. I had been pet sitting for my sister’s best friend and was waiting a long time to take the dog back to her parent’s house because my sister and I were flying up to Portland, OR to attend our cousin’s graduation from college. I ended up visiting my grandmother at 8:30pm. When I entered into the room I instantly knew something was wrong, very wrong. She didn’t look like herself and when I touched her she was clammy. She said her stomach hurt which wasn’t unusual but when she asked for a Kleenex to spit up in she threw up dark brown fluid, which was bile. I called for the CNA’s to help clean her up and in that very moment I experienced tunnel vision with Babe. Our soul’s communicated and she told me, “I’m done”, and I immediately started to cry. I heard her in my mind if that makes sense, and I knew then it was the beginning of the end of this journey for her and I both.

Around 12:30am on the 19th I decided to leave and go home. I got up out of my seat and came around the bed and held her bruised hand, and with my other free hand I wipe something from her face and kissed her on her forehead and said, “Ok Babe I’ll see you tomorrow when I spend the night”. I said goodnight to my sister and said “I love you Babe” and immediately I heard in my head, “I love you too”. I verbally recognized this my sister and told her that her spirit was still with her.

Three and a half hours later I received a call from my mother saying, “She’s gone, Mama’s gone”, the day my entire life changed.

Psychics, Healers, Mediums oh my!

I have to admit I am a fan of podcasts, especially when the subject revolves around the paranormal! My favorite podcast of all time is The Big Seance which is hosted by the great Patrick Keller! He interviews great people in the paranormal field and has a Facebook group called The Big Seance Parlour; this is where magic happens!

One day I was wine searching in BevMo when I got tagged into a live streaming video where Patrick was actively announcing the winner of giveaway of Psychics, Healers, and Mediums by Jenniffer Weigel…. and guess what… I WAS THE WINNER! He even pronounced Amber Choisella right!!! It was destined.

The book was written by a journalist who goes on the road and interviewed you guessed it, psychics, healers, and mediums. I really enjoyed the book and I suggest you read and enjoy it too. Oh and check out <a href="The Big Seance“>The Big Seance Podcast while you’re at it, you’ll thank me later!!!!

Another Experience With My Grandma

I woke up this morning and immediately wrote about the experience I had while I was sleeping. I had a lucid dream of my grandmother speaking to me. I couldn’t see her but I heard her talking to me in my mind. It was so expansive that it felt like her voice filled every area of my mind. Immediately when I heard the voice I knew it was Babe. She spoke fast and it was a lot of information; however I do remember her telling me that she’s always with me. It’s almost a year to the day that she transitioned so it doesn’t surprise me that she would come through. My grandfather waited exactly a year to his passing to visit me. I physically miss her everyday, yet I feel her with me every day that I wake up and survive another day without her. 7tulip no grad white

Blogger Recognition Award

Blogger Recognition Award

Hello everyone!

Earlier today, fellow blogger The Dragonfly  nominated me for the “Blogger Recognition Award” and let’s just say, this made my soul smile! I am reading this post rather late but all the same I’m honestly highly honored.

I want to give a HUGE thank you to this sweet soul for adding my blog to her nominee list, honestly made my night.

The Dragon Fly‘s blog resonates with my higher self as am I am currently in the mood of transformation. It’s also very interesting that whenever I go hiking I am always guided by a dragonfly, it’s as if they are guiding and supporting me as I continue to ascend higher, spiritually of course! If you’re into positive affirmations and support towards transformation, you’ll love her blog!

THE RULES ARE:

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  • Write a post to show your award.
  • Give a brief story of how your blog started.
  • Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers.
  • Select 15 other bloggers, or however many you want to give this award to.
  • Comment on each blog and let them know you have nominated them & provide link to the post you created.

The Freespirited was created as a platform to submit my feelings and ideas to but it too has been transforming into a site for those who are seek spiritual understanding and development to find answers and resonance. I’ve been blogging for two years but have been writing for about 20 years. I’m not bohemian, just a free spirit, seeking and spreading truth as I know it! In love and light.

My two pieces of advice to new bloggers are:

  1. Be comfortable – Write because you can. Write because you feel the need to ; whatever the reason, write because it’s your form of expression. Be comfortable with the content that you seek to write.
  2. Don’t be afraid to reach out and talk to someone – I have no problems contacting others, just ask any of my nominees! If someone reaches out and comments on your post, don’t be afraid to engage in conversation with them because you never know what you can build and or share with one another!

My lovely nominees are:

Note: You do NOT have to participate, however, it could be a way to make someone a little more excited about their day 🙂

Thanks to all who read, check out my posts in the archives!

Sending Love and Light

I’ve been struggling with spreading love and light in my current work environment because of the negativity that resides within; however I am sending YOU, yes YOU at this very moment love and light. I send this out to all who are able to receive it. If no one has said this to you yet, I love you! Now carry on and continue living to the highest potential despite how your day has been. 

Painting of the Lotus

Just Give In 

Last night my sister and I traveled to San Francisco to attend a concert. Normally from Sacramento it’s takes an hour and a 1/2 but since we left at 5:30pm, we were expecting to get there in 2 and 1/2 hours because of rush hour traffic, but we were wrong. An hour later we entered into the city where we met the most of our traffic. I have an exteme anxiety of driving in SF due to the high hills so I prayed for comfort as I exited off of the 101. Next, I asked my guides specifically to help me find close and FREE parking and I found both minutes later. 

Favorite Indie Artist, Hazel English (I took this photo)

Hazel English is a 25 year old Oakland based Australian Indie artist. I found her one day last year while listening to an Indie mix on Spotify. If you’re into the Indie genre check her out, you’ll love her! She’s got a 60’s vibe about her from the clothing she wears you the essence she sends out onto the world. 

My sister and I were originally the first pair in line but after going back to the car and grabbing my sister’s sweater we came back second in line. The two ladies in front of us were San Jose natives who extended warmness and familiarity. As soon as the doors were opened we walked into the venue and Hazel walks in front and a across from where I’m standing in the darkened lit room and I yell, “Hazel” as she turns around. I then embarrassingly ask, “Can I take a picture with you”, which she replies, “Sure but after the show”. I felt like a little kid and I knew my face was red from the embarrassment I felt. Here I am 28 years old, geeking out when I see another (talented) human being just feet from where I was standing.  All in all she put on an amazing show and displayed some of her era sticken moves which I wished I had recorded on my Snapchat!

Spirit is always with us readily available to assist with anything, all we need to do is ask. Although, I asked for small things, Spirit was there so why wouldn’t there be there when I ask for “big” things?  

While you’re pondering that question just go ahead and listen to her, here’s a link from Amazon Music, it’s her new album, Just Give In/ Never Going Home Again. You’re thank you in advance! 

Vibrations and Jupiter, finally I understand!!!

Sooooo for years I’ve never fully understood what the vibrations that I would feel in my heart chakra meant and when I was younger it would completely freak me out. Why, because I also didn’t realize that I’ve been suffering from anxiety from a young age because I didn’t understand that whenever I would feel this specific vibration in my heart chakra it is a sign for Spirit to communicate. I always thought it was because something was getting ready to happen to someone around, because this has been the case before, sorta like a forewarning, no really, it would be a forewarning. I normally receive information through my thoughts and images in my mind’s eye. I appreciate this new understanding. 

Tonight I felt the vibrations in my heart and decided to go outside and look in the sky. Jupiter is very visible tonight and I’ve always felt a strong connection with Jupiter, one I just cannot explain. I went outside and I closed my eyes and asked my guides to come in and tell me what was going on. Immediately I sensed my body rocking back and forth while I was standing and I remained calm and just observed what was happening to me. I’m currently at work so once I get home I’ll see if I can write a message from Spirit. I’ve been working on clearing blockages so everything is just flowin in it seems like….. GREAT!!!!! 

Amber Choisella

Releasing & Accepting Divine Timing

I am currently dealing with or should I say, working through something in my life and it’s difficult because I don’t have patience. I’m ready to move forward yet I KNOW it’s not time yet, but I’m ready to move on. I spoke to another lightworker earlier today and she suggested that I give myself a reading. This is the message that I received. Hopefully you can read the cards if not they’re; you are not alone, acceptance, divine timing, allow love, and patience. I’m ready to release and accept and get ready to transition, trusting that the Universe will deliver right on time, divine timing. 

My Experience with Theresa Caputo and Welcoming My New Guide, Melody!

So I almost died on Saturday, June 24th. It was the day that I went to the Theresa Caputo (The Long Island Medium):

Theresa Caputo
Photo found online

The Live Experience show! It was amazing because her personality was everything I thought it would be. She cursed often, interacted with the audience, and was on point with her messages too! She made my night when she walked to the middle of the paid seats where I was sitting, and looked directly at me!!! I didn’t go expecting to hear from Babe (Grandmother) or any of my departed loved ones, I literally went to observe how she worked. She walked down from the stage in her 10 inch Louboutin’s and read as she walked down the aisles of seats. I love her but for me, I feel that I’m being moved towards teaching and counseling through Spirit hence the mention of my new Spirit guide. 

Melody is the energy’s name and I’m not sure if the energy was ever born. When I saw the energy I was meditating and received a message from a Spirit who identified itself as Melody. The energy felt light, as if it’s a light being that is assisting me now. I am 100% sure that this is my new guide and that the information I received is accurate. I’m ready. Before I writing this post I was taking a nap and I felt someone sit on the end of my bed. I was in the in between state of being asleep and being “woke” when I felt it. I don’t know who it was because it didn’t matter at the time. I acknowledged that it was there and then it was gone. This experience reassured me that I’m not alone, Spirit’s got my back!

Light being
Photo found online, yet this is how Melody appeared to me, in light form